when my teacher says...
"there's no separation between samsara and nirvana."
"in the midst of chaos, you can still find peace and freedom."
i used to feel motivated and greatly inspired...
until now..
the first time i really know how it feels like...
to be torn down and burnt up over and over
by the great fire of samsara.
to have no hope whatsoever in seeking a better life situation.
no escape
no exit
and i begin to see, for the first time,
...that practice is and will be my only saving grace.