remembering the example of an old cow: she's content to sleep in barn. you have to eat, sleep, and shit-- that's unavoidable--anything beyond that is none of your business. do what you have to do, and keep yourself to yourself.
you're as low as the lowest, so you ought to be humble there's a whole hierachy above you, so stop being proud. you shouldn't have too many close associates because differences would surely arise. since you're not involved in religious and political activities, don't make demands on yourself. give up everything. that is the point!!