it has been snowing cats and dogs for two days now and my car has already been buried into nearly 3 feet of snow. my inner state of mind seems to reflect the outer state of weather--pretty cold and grim. amidst all that, i found this quote by Trungpa Rinpoche very helpful.
"yes, you give up; you lost heart. you think, "nothing may happen to me at all. nothing may happen to me. i may not actually attain enlightenment." and you lose your heart. or maybe you say, "i am going to be eternally constipated." that is losing heart. you're stuck with your shit and piss in your body for the rest of your life. that can happen at the same time that you still take pride in your practice."
thank you, rinpoche. your insight is very grimly brilliant, indeed.